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The Glamour of Eating Disorders.
Because of my decade of eating disorders, this is where I’ve been 🦋
🌸I’ve purged in every single bathroom on my college’s campus.
🌸 I’ve been questioned for smelling like vomit
🌸 I’ve bruised my ass and legs (which hurt for weeks after) just by sitting down
🌸 I have fainting spells now! Last Friday I fainted 5 times and was nearly sent to the ER. Once I fainted in the shower and as a result, my boyfriend insists on keeping the bathroom door open and on checking on me. Every shower since.
🌸 I’ve eaten trash during a binge
🌸 I’ve eaten a 2 week old stale donut that I found in my boyfriend’s friend’s apartment during a binge.
🌸 I have rummaged through the homes of friends, family, and even strangers for scales to weigh myself. Once, I even pawed through a frat house during a party to weigh myself. (If you’re curious, I found one and did weigh myself.)
🌸I’ve shoplifted laxatives and diuretics in desperation.
🌸I have bone- bruised my coccyx (tailbone) by sitting on the toilet.
🌸 I’ve seized (had a seizure) because I had binged and purged so many times in a day.
🌸 I have destroyed my thyroid (a very important organ, I may add) because of my years of ED, and will now be on medication for the rest of my life.
🌸I have permanently damaged my intenstines from abusing laxatives.
🌸 My stomach is beyond fucked up as a result of permanent damage.
🌸I have abused drugs I didn’t even want to do in order to suppress my appetite.
🌸I have damaged my heart because of my ED.
🌸 I have stolen food to binge and purge.
🌸I have both puked and shit blood because of damaged organs.
🌸I had, at one point, lost half my hair because of malnutrition– adding of course that I grew lanugo EVERYWHERE in addition.
🌸 I get dizzy spells every time I stand
🌸I have taken so many laxatives that I spent an entire day puking and shitting.
🌸 I have seriously emotionally hurt my partner (romantic) because of actions I took because of my eating disorder.
🌸 I have drained my bank account compulsively buying ED shit.
🌸 I have chronic chest pains because of my ED.
🌸 I have gotten bone-bruises in my sleep because I had my joints crossed.
🌸I have lost my adolescence and youth to my ED
🌸 I have estranged myself from my family because of my ED
🌸 I have not spent a day without thinking about my weight since I was 9/10 years old.
🌸 I have had my ED so long, it has become a part of my identity and sense of self– I am terrified of recovery because of this
🌸 I have shortened my lifespan significantly–to the point where I have discussed the fact that I will die first wth my partner, as we plan our future together.
This has ruined my life.
Please do not think these disorders will in any way improve your life, they will only plunge you into hell. I do not say these things for pity or attention– I simply want to deter others from ever dabbling in ED behaviors and encourage those who have not been disordered long to seek help before it’s too late. And, obviously, to deter anyone from seeking this kind of behavior.
These diseases will destroy you in every realm of your life. They will kill you. I have lost friends to these diseases. Death is a real threat– do not make the mistake of thinking it cannot happen to you. It will.
All an eating disorder will ever be is pain.
We need to destroy the glamour that seems to surround eating disorders, which only exists because of the rampant misinformation on the subject. We must bring the true reality of ED’s to light. We cannot let misinformation ruin any more lives. Please spread the reality of EDs.
It’s never too late to recover.
I encourage everyone to seek recovery/ and or treatment.
Much Love,
K
eating disorders are hell, agreed. but i would give all of this and more to have my perfect body.
How I like to fast
- first set a timer for however long you intend to fast for
- I would recommend around 12 to 72 hours
- please do NOT try to fast for more than three days because it’s super dangerous and you’ll end up in hospital
- every time you want to binge look at the clock to see how much progress you’ve made
- this really helps me to stay motivated because I’d hate to ruin all the work I’ve done!
- if I do end up binging I restart the timer immediately and have to start again
- obviously I really hate doing this so it really helps me see the consequences to my choices
- I always end my fast with some form of fruit or vegetable and then later try to have a small and nutritious meal
- if you feel faint or dizzy at anytime please have something small to eat
- don’t weigh yourself until a couple of days after because you may have a little bit of water weight but I promise you it’ll all come off and more
- always remember to drink lots of water!!!
🌹 stay safe 🌹
feel free to message me about anything :)
you can’t binge every time you’re hungry.
get some self control. distract yourself. you’re strong than your hunger. you are in control of your body and your weight.
October Rules
- first thing when you wake up, chug 300mL of water (or half an average water bottle)
- stay within your calorie goal of 300-1,200. higher is unacceptable, while somewhere lower is fine.
- drink 2L+ of water a day
- take care of your skin! wash your face, use facemasks, moisturize and so on
- binge twice a month, and you get to choose when. no more than two binge days.
- workout three times a week at least. this can be skateboarding for an hour, walking running - anything.
- three cups of green tea a day. at least.
-liquid calories dont count unless its heavy in dairy or INCREDIBLY sugary. (so add sugar and milk to your tea, thats fine)
- sleep 7-9 hours.
- do your homework as soon as you get home, and study for at least an hour.
-read for ½-1 hour a night at least. more is okay!!
- shower nightly, making sure to exfoliate and shave!!!
- brush your teeth after you eat, every time. get your teeth whiter and help you not eat more too
- fast four or more times a month, for 24-48 hours, but dont go over 48! ever!!
- will fast 12 hours a day ; can eat from 7:00AM to 7:00PM but not after or before.
-most importantly, stay safe. always always always listen to your body, and try to be kind. its doing what it can for you. stay safe, love.
Eating Disorder Media
Movies
- To The Bone
- Perfect Body
- Sharing the Secret
- The Love of Nancy
- Secret Between Friends
- Thinspiration/Starving in Surburbia
- Feed
- The Road Within
- Vincent Wants to Sea
- My Skinny Sister
- Girl Interrupted
- Little Miss Perfect
- Karen Carpenter Story
- Dying to Dance
- Hunger Point
Tv Shows
- Red Band Society
- Make it or Break it
- Glee
- Supersize vs Superskinny
- Starved
- Holly Oaks
- Degrassi
- CSI: The Hunger Artist
- Dr. Phil
Documentaries
- Thin
- Dying to be Thin
- Thin Club
- I’m a Child Anorexic
- Living Sz0
- Extremely Thin Celebrites
- Desperately Hungry Housewives
- A Beautiful Tradegy
- Dying to be Anorexic
- Out of Sight: Invisible ED’s
- Super Slim Me
Books
- Wintergirls
- Elena Vanishing: A Memoir
- Brave Girl Eating
- Unbearable Lightness
- Wasted: A Memoir of Anorexia & Bulimia
- How to Disappear Completely
- Diary of an Anorexic Girl
- Being Ana: A Memoir of Anorexia Nervosa
- Beautiful Me
- After the Strawberry
- Letting Ana Go
- Skinny
- Kid Rex
- Second Star to the Right
- My Perfect Little Secret

